thinks

i like windy evenings, with rustling leaves and fallen leaves moving across the ground.
took a detour from the usual way home and decided to walk home, the route that i always take in the kindergarten years. (smth i wont do normally, cause im too lazy.)

felt very thankful for my parents recently.
in the past week, they have been really supportive, a stark contrast from a few months back, when some conflict was going on, and i dreaded going home like mad. i reached home ard 9 for almost this whole week, (and uhm, at midnight ytd, whoops) and they had fruits and herbal drink left for me, instead of the naggings in the past. dad has been supportive financially too, how else can i get my frappes? (:
i hafnt seen the clan for very very long. because all of us can only study alone/at home. ):


i know we dont understand plenty, yet i am convinced You healed many.
i miss you, and i wish with all i can you would come running home. recalls what gi said, indeed, you took a part of mine away. may his persistence bring him back. and mine bring you back too.

"judgement weeks" has arrived, jiayou people!

awesome saturday.

awesome saturday.

i realise i can only blog in chronological order, so..
in the morning, had breakfast with rachel (ton) then we went to chat w the muggers.
soon after that, went for the believer's gathering.
hoho, actually me n jon wanted to go for this lesson but didnt know today is another lesson but nevertheless, it's a good reminder and realised alot of Os and As people go to the gathering too, lol.

during prayermeet, felt so super blessed.
pastor shirley got the people to pray for the leaders, and the people took turns to pray for me. was really quite touched. (:
opened our eyes are realised the entire sngs grp was staring at us, cause they just reach nexus, lol!


"have you realised there's something different about yr leaders' shoulders?
they carry the entire weight of the grp, so its always (i forgot what world p.shirls used)"
but aww, very sweet of her. :')
so very soon, i will become like L, sloppy shoulders and cool. yay.

anw i love today's praise song.
all my days.
cant find the lyrics, shall wait for communication to update y-hope.blogspot, haha!
so during praise, i felt so super blessed again.
was looking around as i jumped, saw the entire row of my group jumping and praising, and the other northeast people in my view too. really want to thank God for such great people, and the new people from sngs. you guys have been wonderful- kar, think God really use you n bless you with all this great people from yr persistance and hard work in the school.
















this is a picture of the sngs grp (or rather, a photo of the picture, which is why they look abit weird) a few months back.
right now, they have doubled, going to triple already. anw, i dont hv their recent photo, can go kar's blog.

think is really God's blessing, that the people that came in recently are passionate, willing to give time to the kingdom and interested in His things too.

and i know the w0rkers in AND. are working hard too. the time will come for the AND. side too!
(*recalls me n yihui wondering both cant grow at the same time) then nea1 will be really vibrant again. :D

the sermon, gigi's counselling workshop and shirl's teaching on faithfulness were all very helpful and applicable. think tt gigi taught well today (:
anw faithfulness is what mrs allison lim wrote on my card ^^ aww.

after tt, we went to s11 for supper/dinner.
dengdengge got high again. pam and me binged. she's my binge partner. (hafnt gone out w my tanchipal, ying for quite sometime alr.) then we all listened to the funniest guy i ever met in my life- ruiyong!
he's funny in the good way lah ^^ his story made me laugh until i felt so tired and breathless, laugh until no sound.

ruiyong: *talking abt something*
jon: wah, duo da? (aka how big?)
ruiyong: huh, DOTA?
(this is not funny, this is to show the negative effects of addiction to dota, tsktsk)

there really is magic in the night. really enjoyed all the nights out with hopies. doing really simple stuff, simple meals, but extraordinarily enjoyable.

we went to serangoon then me,yihui,gi n pam took cab home. anw the cabdriver wants to muder all of us. thank god we never die under his hands.
when all 3 of them reached their destinations, and he was driving me home
i kept thinking of the song "Jesus, take the wheeeeeeel~~~, take it from my his hands!"
maybe this is how reckless we can lead our lives too. haha.

Os start, tomorrow.
i have been very mad recently, thank you for all yr tolerance, lol.
will be "normal" in half a month's time (:

thx huiqi

hoho. changed the colour cause i dont like tt blue, haha.
thanks yeohuiqi!

hoho!
thanks pam for this layout.

thanks sunny for a great website.
http://www.enewhope.org/video/

the sermons by pastor wayne cordeiro are funny, impactful and easy to understand.
anyway, they provide the teaching paper. so u can print, listen and copy notes!
(its okay, communication will improve : D)

east website provides audio ones then can put in mp3s.

yup. had two sermons tonight, about decision making and wisdom.

omg, this is the 3rd time im blogging since im online.

-_-"

things to do after Os.

im waiting for yeohuiqi to make me a new layout, and i hv nth to do.
sunny has gone mad, and huiqi is daoing me. : /
so

things to do after Os,
in very random order

burn books, dump remains, hack down unnecessary furniture, paint smth on the wall of my room. (w.o my parents realising, whoops)

bishibashi with the girlfriends! always stupid, brainless and spastic. but always enjoyable.
bishibashi with the coreteam+pam,cong? smth new. and we have three ps-es add tgt, yay.

shop for prom stuff. omg, bloghopped and it seems like alot of people got their gowns alr. o.0!

clarkequay with pamela? still on?

esplanade roof top terrace talks, without the haze, yay.
cartel cake-at-half-price talks?

*work at it, so the people i want to have this christmas would come running home.

those art-therapatic chinatown huntdown with wong cixin (:

breakthrough church camp!

biblestudy crashcourse!

a pile of christmas cards. i actually enjoy writing cards alot.

learn photoshop etc well and be a support to y.communication! (:

learn guitar... *meek smile. i really like guitar, leh.

carolling. never mind tt i cant sing well, its tonnes of fun.

blog revamps for all blogs. like this, nea1 etc.

anime marathon! my bleach... etc etc etc.


AND some of which i cant mention here, hehe!
cant think of anymore the moment, this can go on and on and on...

pointlessness.

this is pretty much a pointless entry, dont read it unless you have nth better to do.

today i
1. woke up, realising i slept on my nano from the prev night.
2. went to northpt macs for the third consecutive day. i think im going mad very soon.
so started smsing people.
3. ate 2 meals in 3 hours. this is so stupid, miscalculation of time. -_-"
4. received something worse than a rejection, which is a rejection before invitation. :(
oh Lord, make a way.
5. never felt so full for a very long time, walked around northpoint aimlessly while chatting with ber on the phone.
6. received news that another good pal wants to go to poly.
7. settled down in starbucks, which was quieter than library.
8. went to the loo 5 times or so. -_-" drank milo, coke, caramel frap and hot chocolate.
(the hot chocolate is free from starbucks. small sample cup. it tastes like milo + chocolate, but still quite nice)
9. eavesdrop on the conversation of the poly students behind me.
whoops. they talk very loud and my nano was low so i listen, lor. anw the first part of their conver is all gossip. about how this xx girl has two boyfriends, one "school boyfriend" and the other "outside boyfriend" etc. after that, it got to school woes. like how projectmates are irresponsible etc. generally interesting. :X
10. walked down the flight of stairs from northpoint starbucks directly to level one for the first time.

i think im going mad soon.
i need to talk to people >_<
thank God there's pm tml. rc, where the humankind reside. yay.

the realm of mugging

hoho, went bloghopping. james kang was talking abt "realm of mugging".
this whole week is like the longest week ever.
tml feels like saturday, but it's only thursday.
have been alone these few days, because i just cannot mug with people. i talk too much.
so today's caregroup gathering was a good relief from macs smell, cokelight, largefries, couples-trying-to-mug-but-going-all-over-each-other.

met a primary schoolmate at bk after shopping with sharon, emily and felicia for their farewell gifts. surprised that she could still recognise me, took me awhile to figure out who she is.
anw, she's taking AEP at opss. so i was looking at my "very cute drawing of a bolus" (a ball of food that yr tongue rolls into to push down yr throat) and her woah! drawing of roses, leaves etc. :/

deviant browsing is a good relief from the books.

i feel nauseous thinking about all the people mugging their everything out. and mind you, people do, in this insane school. hmm, i bought those textbooks what, i own them, why must i memorise everything in them?

oh, met nea2 after their deathnote at northpt. (: they go to ulu place.

lalalalala. projectrunway!

i cmi, but i try.

today's quite a fruitful day, so taking a break by blogging but still abstaining from the msn, if not no need go offline alr, haha.
attempted to mug at home today, but got distracted as i look at the posters on my walls and begin to think how i can rip them off and replace them with new things, how i can hack down that cupboard and etc ._. so i left for northpoint.

it was very very noisy, but i dont know why, i can study very well in the very noisy Macs. i was actually craving for macs, when i normally hate macs, i wonder why.
anw, after that went to walk ard, and saw smth interesting.

at a pharmacy, a lady was making a purchase with a purple note. obviously not a two dollar bill, but a thousand dollar bill. the cashiers seem very delighted to be holding such a bill. beside the lady stood her boyfriend/husband, looking a little pained and :/
guess what she bought? a slimming product. people are really willing to pay just to look good. read an article in the papers this morning, more and more girls in girls school are developing eating disorders. :(

anw this reminds me of smth that happened at the same pharmacy and same counter. a man was carrying his toddler daughter, and buying a well, mechanical birth contraceptive. the whole scene feels wrong, somehow.

haha, actually im just finding smth to blog lah.
anw, thanks zijie and gary who came to pass me back the chi notes. :D

found this photo stashed in one of the folders, so pretty.




think was taken from my dad's car, when everyone went to watch lakehouse, and i had to go to some dinner ):

having caregroup gathering tml, looking forward (:

gone.

after 2 hours of napping on the sofa and a shower, i feel alive and in function again.
due to waking up at an unearthly hour of 545 this morning, i was a walking zombie this afternoon.

today, me, pam and jon went to school to talk to the ANDhoppies.
we were supposed to talk to them in the morn before their flagraising but thgs didnt turn out so smooth, so we postponed it to after school. we mug @ the canteen, or rather, attempt to mug there amidst the (very boring) sec 1 post exams activity taking place nearby. poor things.
(zhicai managed to blend in with me n pam, and a particular teacher believed he's sec 4 too -_-")

our message was clear.
we are well gone from the school, graduated, on our own, wont be back.
so we are passing on this baton.
this baton we have (somewhat) willingly took up the past two years and held so dear.
this baton with our dreams, our blood, our tears, our efforts, our time.
it holds all these things, and it means the WORLD to us.
that is why we bother to wake up at unearthly hour, when the Os is a week away to tell you about this baton.
we have reached the end of our race in AND and can no longer fight alongside you guys. you got to stretch out, and hold this baton and run. run relentlessly, run tirelessly.
run until you understand why the baton means the world to us, by then, it would mean the world to you too.

over

haha.
its times like this i feel so joyful and at rest.
its a victorious day today!
there's power in God's word, and there's power in prayer.
honey lemon is a good drink for all.

anw, at an unearthly hour of 650am i woke up in shock, saw a certain msg, felt overjoyed, but yet very sleepy so i went back to sleep and dreamnt that i went to ask the printing people how much zion tees would cost. ministry-driven dream -_-"

recently, some things have happened, and it just went on to show me how powerful He is. how much strength people can draw from Him.

it's just one of the days i can sit here and smile stupidly at the comp, thanking Him for who He is. a smile that is whole, because that god-shaped vacumn is filled up. a smile that is deep, because my joy lies beyond the surface circumstances and in Him.
thanks. keep adding to them and me.

p.s. thanks tiffany for the postcard (:

morbid, not.

photo on some model photo sharing web.

i like such photos :X

randomness,two.

realised what a fine line separates existance and non-existance.
when your biggest issue at hand is on continuing your existance,
will you remember the A1s you scored at your olevel?
will you remember the things you do up in order to get to that post you've been eyeing all the time?
when everything fades away, then you realise this life you have lived is so bleak.
so sad to live a life of climbing upwards for tonnes of achievements, yet in the midst of climing upwards, there isn't reaching around. a life that doesnt make a diff to anyone else.

today, i know the impact one has made.

*

deathnote was... alright.
not really into movies with many parts, i feel like they want to cheat my money ):
esp since i can watch a play with all that money. i adore plays n musicals!
but then, L IS SO CUTE. HAHA.
though the movie's entertainment value was heightened by a school's student, who adore the intellectual and were sitting at the edge of their seats trying to "solve" and figure out whats going to happen.
shall go watch the anime soon, manga too wordy, lazy to read.
but due to my very nice friends, i know everything that has happened or is going to happen. boo spoilers.

*

upskirting is a sexism act man.
just cause guys dont wear skirts, they dont get upskirted?
btw there's smth called downblousing, so stupid.
pam's friend almost got victimised and pam started daydreaming that she has deathnote.
uh..

*

it takes a bucket of blood to inspire a drop of sweat

*

http://www.phunkstudio.com/phunk_folder/indexA.html
a fav visual rock band

*

the ties between humanity, reduced to nothing more than natural behavior to protect offsprings for survival of the fittest in Darwin's theory.

ppft.

randoms.

random.

my neck aches.

the haze is unbearable.

silence can be so dreadful.

stand strong, i hope you do.

i hate it when someone cries..

met daniel leow @ j8life bookshop.

OP is hippening up eh, selling totes.

onion stings eyes, esp with contacts.

oh my jijiwawa. emaths n amaths fys are sold out islandwide, unless the woman lie to me.

Isaiah 55:9As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.

xin bday 06

today is another long day. my head's spinning a little, zzz.

was walking around j8 killing time with deng while we wait for pam, then we went for lunch @ shilin ._. deng went off to meet alv, me n pam went to mug a little and i went off.

cixin went to pierce her ear and we made her change into stuff we (or rather, they) bought- white ____ girl shirt, skirt and her bag. (sounds like yesterday)
stalled time for awhile and left for zu cao @ thomson. family feeling to eat dinner from the same dishes, haha. it's a place of my childhood anyway, ate there since i was 6 or smth. and went to a 2 storey carpark to take spastic photos ._."

some photos are taken out, so i can stay alive and you too, will not laugh to death.

took the bus back to j8, talked about HAIR on the way and began journey to the last destination- esplanade.


look, all the wire sculpture that's on display. these photos arent well taken, so they do injustice to the real pieces, some of which do capture the audience.

so anw, after some struggle, we manage to reach the roof terrace, where huishan is hiding in one of the cubicles of the toilet. and struggle, struggle, manage to have a proper cake fanfare thing. with 6 candles and a sparkle representing a decade.
after that, we started playing with the sparkles huishan bought, and when we play finish alr, the security came n told us to stop. haha! we were pretty anti-climax to the romantic atmosphere where many are kissing i guess, haha.

left the pretty roof terrace and went down to level one, and walked to.. merlion park, a bridge away.

smth malu-ating happened. we got a man to help us take a group shot. and after the shot, he asked: oh, where are you guys from? thinking that we are tourists, which i replied "uhm, singapore" meekly. hahaha. he's a tourist lah. ._."
so, we walked around the park, tgt with tourists, backpackers and families and posed for more photos.

think today is somewhat significant, because its the last birthday we will celebrate in this last year.
these four years of birthdays have been a test to our creativity and stamina (running around, shopping etc) and can say yuan man jie shu liao. though jo and jasm arent around today :/ but these birthdays add tonnes of joy anf fun into these sec sch life. nvertheless, xi wang ming nian hai hui.


blame the haze and lousy night mode for my phone cam.
but still like this photo alot, its huishan's suggestion. haha.

after today, i shall not blog daily anymore!
life's gona dull down to tys and mugging.

one more month to liberation!
more talks on roof terraces, more cartel chitchats. yay.

bday 06

yeay, today is a uber joyous day.
ha, this day of the past two yrs, been sitting here, counting my blessings n feeling so blessed.

okay, here goes..
i happily snoozed my alarm clock to wake up later when suddenly, my maid came and "layling (actually she calls me liling), wake up wake up! yr friends are here!"
so i hopped off my bed and o.0! jasmine, bernice, renying, huishan, cixin and qiaoling walked in n sniggered at my just-wake-up expression.

then, they shoo me to wash up and bathe, while they did sneaky things.
so, they made me change into the shirt n skirt they bought and a very nice white bag. uhm, they hang the bag there, trying to make it seem like it's qiao's bag, but in the first place, i didn't see her carrying it, whoops.

so i changed and we left the house. AND GUESS WHAT.
they hid my wedges and my slippers and made me wear... disgusting pirated pink crocs. omg, nightmare.

for the frequent commuters, you'll know this is taken on a mrt train. see, ugly pirated crocs and all of em are wearing fairly presentable shoes.

and you wont believe their destination- orchard.
so there will be many people witnessing my fashion flop.

so we went to wisma food republic to eat.
i ate some 4.50 wanton noodles with huge whole shrimp wantons. then huishan and qiaoling claimed that they wana go toilet while we sat and crapped around. and jasmine insisted that "there are no more surprises." somehow, i dont believe lah.

then huishan called renying. (of all of us, she cant act one.) and said that qiao walked and fell down and is at ngee ann city fountain and made us hurry run over. so i didnt believe, lol, but played along anw and ran over to the fountain. at such times, you appreciate pirated crocs man. poor women in heels, hoho!

here comes the unexpected part.
my challenge and birthday forfeit of the day: wear a furry orange hairband, with my pink crocs, parade down orchard road and ask at least 5 people to eat a pizzahut drumlet.
this is the gauge of Singaporeans' friendliness. we took a very long time to accomplish it okay. lets see, in the end, the 5 drumlets went to: 2 little kids with their mum, took two.
we met michelle chia filming with some guy from superhost, they got entertained by us n spoke to us, and took one. (she said" haha, now you know our job is difficult") a very nice angmoh lady and a teenager that took pity on us. haha!

so after i finally finished the challenge, they returned me my wedges and we went to swensens, cause i get a free firehouse (is that its name?) on my birthday worth 8.90. hahahaha!
they ate topless 10.

the candle is so tiny and cute.
and then they sent me to somerset area and took a balloon from some olympus promo n tell me that this is to symoblise they are w me for the rest of the day (and i uhm, let it off after lunch lalalalala)

so thankyou girls! (: never take group pict -_-"

after that, i reached nexus and they sang a bday song right before pm, then i got malu-fied.
so the entire service was awesome. love the new series the church is embarking on. love the designs of the mm slides :X and the ultimate fav praise of all generations- one way. haha!

anw, thank you for yr cards n gifts: seepeng, rachel, natalie, guozhang, deng, michelle, desmond, ian, weilong.
(did i miss out anyone at this pt in time?)

had lunch at Le meridean (i cant spell) and left for meeting at rix's.
and somehow, people were quite restless and the zion core seems somewhat suspicious but i didnt expect how much they'll go through.

they blindfold me and led me step by step to the busstop (thankyou rachel, huitian and yihui!), took a bus to j8 and made me walk ard and entertain em, made me dance, hug a pillar, took photo with a kid!! and dance kungfu, all when i was being blindfolded. >_< the people that made my day.
missing: rachel. (thanks girl.)

until its left with me, pam, jon, deng, cong, yihui. and we all dont feel like going home, but left at 1130. took cab home with pam, deng n cong. had a good chat with all of them.

i thank God for great friends and a great spiritual family. what a blessed day. super embarrassing day, but i loved it alot. shall use this to motivate myself to mug. after Os, tonnes of such chitchat sessions!

so anw, i forgot to open my letterbox, and i threw the key, wrapped in a newspaper down 10storeys to my brother, who picked it up n opened it for me. thankyou for yr letters n cards tt u sent! (jon, alvin, ying, xin, jo - i nv receive ber's ._.) and all the sms-es from all of ya.

although that wish didn't come true, he reminded me, Philippians 1:6
being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
exchange his hardened heart, her wearied heart n those condemned hearts for a heart thirsty for Him again.

we'll reach the end tgt. keep one another running, this way.

sleepyyy

very sleepy today.

anw ytd night went bloghopping and went to freedy's blog. saw the link to the east blog, went there and felt repentant and tt ne blog needs a revival *nudges pete and tian.
anw the main point is that i downloaded 2 sermon podcasts and attempted to stay up till 2+ to listen to one. but woah, its really cool.

beats scrolling around my poddy, trying to find smth to listen to. smth new to listen to on journeys nowadays, yay.

today's mugging locations are all wrong.
early in the morn, coffeebean is so freezing my nose felt like its gona drop off, again.
serangoon tauhui shop has some jijiwawa girls playing cheat and giggling at the top of their lungs. seven of them, and a fellow mugger can still fall asleep, he must be really tired.
then there's this funny uncle zi-lianing w his nokia in front of me. nearly choke on my tangyuan.
RC void deck is plaughed by the smell of rubbish cause the truck was gg around and the shrill cries of a... kid. eeks.

went to nyjc with alvin n luke before pm. nth really appealing, cept the sch looks nice, because it has AEP. :/

i wonder whats gg to happen tml.

today's a happy day, thats why im blogging again :

-skips entire portion about being @ kfc early in the morn and eating and mugging-
so, the caregroup had lunch at amk kfc! we tried all the cheezy stuff. i actually felt like puking. think recently eating too much fast food, haha.
anw really glad that gladys (hehe!) and emily joined us today!

so after a mini sharing, we went to the playgrd opposite courts for the games.
only uploading nice picts. (:
ji dan, bai long, gamemaster and xiao gui fei.
they look so cute!
(:


huang tai hou, fan qie and ma tong.

wai xing ren, su dong puo and ma ling shu.
okok, dont comment about my spasm. i know.

haha, there must be a divine intervention. the three people they are celebrating bday for happened to be in the three groups they split us up into- sarah, sharon and me.

so after the obstacle course and running ard the little playgroud, i got muscleache.
look how old i am and how long i hvnt exercised :X

so we gathered and kar chose the three of us to do the "final task" kind of thing, and it was to write "i'm old!" with our butts, and we did it willingly .__." and after that we thought we have won for our group! and she gave us each a bday card, and they sang bday song. awww.

the card backed with the spas clues kar came up with!


thank you for such a nice afternoon and yr creative idea.
its a great surprise and a timely reminder.

lasts

so nice of mr tay.
think he didnt use cheem-er chi phrases, cause we cmi. haha.


the AND school hall. see you in 18 days.

last day

ha, today's the last official day of school for the sec 4s.
i should have known, and dont expect anything much.
there is supposed to be some farewell event for us, and in stark contrast to my imagination, we didnt have some sweet nice pleasant farewell. instead, we started the farewell with 2006 prelims results analysis. wow. thanks AND. andd ended it with some clip which "god doesn't refer to any god is particular, and isnt for preaching reasons" hurhur. and it is taken from a christian website. ppftt.
whatever the school does lah, we manage to enntertain ourselves with shots.
look, lun n sun, my friends! lol.

people that i will miss!
(4/5 isnt ard, so didnt manage to take photos with renying/jon)


us playing with the AND podium onstage, ha!

after that and some stoning in the library, we shelved our plans of going to mindscafe and ended up going to vivocity. for the ignorant, it's the (supposedly) biggest shopping centre in Spore and just opened last week.

the design and architecture is fab, and the location is really nice too, overlooking sentosa. but the floor is so sparkly and shiny and smooth, it takes a lot of effort to walk and not just slide about. the high 3rd level sky garden thing is really fresh.
we took around 15minst to find somewhere to eat, because the place is quite big and only 60% is opened or smth.

me n huishan shock the rest. due to some miscom, they bought 3 carls jr burgers w one being a combo set. ying n ber ate a bit and they die-ded so me n shan polish the rest, hohoho.
and someone told me guys enjoy bringing girls to carls jr cause most of the time girls cant finish the food there, and they get to polish it up. haha, we are exceptions!

made a trip down to bugis aft tt to get xin smth, haha.
saw this little showcase of barbie doll clothes designs and their dollhouses.
this one caught my eye.
and im so very sorry to the artist, cause i forgot his/her name, so i cant credit.
its at bugis, near seiyu, go take a look, esp if u are done w exams and is very free (:

actually i kind of like the barbie hanging there :X
kind of sadistic, but i like it.
rest of the displays are well made, didnt take more photos : /

mel-ness

recently, things have been taking a toll on me, feeling kind of drained.

so i thank God for bernice and the journey home from tuition.

i think we are indeed moving so fast, there isnt going to be any room for those who are lagging behind. those who dont make it big, those who aren't that bright after all.
there will still be space for Him here, wonders how big that space is.

the greatest love that anyone could ever know
that overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
until I see you face to face
and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you

will I ever live to see your kingdom come
and in my heart I pray you'd let your will be done
until I see you face to face
and grace amazing takes me home
i'll trust in you

I will live to love you
I will live to bring you praise
I will live a child in awe of you

you alone are God of all
you alone are worthy Lord
and with all I am
my soul will bless your name

i adore this song, think its really, woah. can indulge in it one.
that line "i will live a child in awe of you" is really simple, but striking to me.
i can cry buckets for those who have lost it, think He can cry tankers.
when we are first new in the faith, we take baby steps and each step we get amazed easily.
as we grow, we seem to become harder, take things for granted, gradually lose that sparkle and amazement that we have for little things of this faith- people crossing the line, encouragements, ess. its a fearful thing.
Revelation 2:4Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love.
i long to see her burn w that zeal again, long to see his joy again.
touch them again, wont ya?

can i have another birthday request?
let them be there, so i can love another photo that we take.

jon's 16th bday!

today is one fun day.

early in the morning, i woke up to sms ian to sms jon to wake up to celeb his birthday w his caregroup. then i dozed off and went off to dream, and was woken up by ian, who figured i went back to sleep.

so i heard from pete the morn celeb by nea3 was successful enough and jon trudged to combined team rally with a giant bugs bunny (gosh, lun's friend) and huge card.
at that same time, i was w lun, sun, alvin n pete and we were mugging, after me n pete got jon his little presents.

we then travelled down to nexus. praise and worship was highhhhh. but i was uber flustered after it, cause our plan was that the ctr would end later lah. but thank God for dear pamela and yushan ans gigi! that went to stall time for us, as we (me,yihui,rachel,pete) scrurried around the place.

the northeast people at the ctr sang him a bday song (actually they just happened to be there, but nvm, its still a sincere song)
got congsie and yongkang to station at 4th and 3rd floor to present him his little gifts, as the whole group of us went down the cuppage escalators, to meet with the "special guest", ian and pete tong, another round of birthday song and phototaking and we all ended up at s11.

and i went "hai, we never meet our objective. jon never cry. c'mon, evaluation time!"
so everyone just laugh along and went on to buy food.

and wahaha, the climax of the celebrations!
which was actually uber impromptu and not planned. me n pete went to get the little puzzle meant for jon from rachel and she suggested i go back, act like smth is wrong n suggest to pray for her. and so i did.

and while i was closing my eyes and leading people in prayer, the others stealthily left the table and exited the place. and when i "amen!" he looked up and 0.o!!! and saw the puzzle in front of him. it was HILARIOUS. :X so he started to piece it back as the people returned back to their seats. the puzzle reads "zion loves you, jon!" btw.

we began the affirmation session. and MISSION accomplished! we made him tear. because his love languange is words. (:
but really want to affirm this sacrificial brother- im sorry i like to bully you so much, and i thank you for setting a standard in AND!


the angels that made his day!
(i look eww in the pict. ):
zion core + pam, ian and congsie.
not in the shot: rachel, yongkang. ):

and me n pam.. went shopping.
yah i know, tsktsktsk.

got some clothes for next week and fried mars bar happily down our stomachs. met with an extremely disgusting guy on the way back.

the train was packed like siao lah, like normal. and i was talking to pam across the head of this vertically challenged man. and he was winking funnily at pam, which is so gross. so even when the train is less packed, he was holding the pole and leaning uber close, which is so gross and praise God pam stepped backwards and pulled me away from that thing. i asked pam if i should step, nah, stomp on his foot with my wedges. but uh, didnt in the end ._.

so anw, next time if i meet such people i will! (met another upskirt-er last sat) shall step and crush their toes like a cigarette butt. boo, they need love. : /

three more days before school end. gosh.

some of the photos i shud have uploaded but due to the stupid virus (which miraculously killed itself), can only upload now.


the nea/nec unit event!
the team im in. uhm, we got to take a spas photo.
natalie looks so cute lah (:
group shot! me, pete n leonard were uhm, trying to be tall. ._.


zion groupshot at anniversary!

haha, lazy to upload the rest. hohoho.

stars

this is taken after metamorphosis weeksss back.
we happen to catch all the flower lightsticks the ushers threw. haha!

these are the darlings that made ANDlife enjoyable and survivable. badly taken shot though, recalls the guy helping us to act cool in front of his girlfriend. ppft.

pict taken while we are on our way to united sq. (part of the) sec 4 AND hoppies.
pam is not moving to hougang/serangoon/kovan. means i can still go home with her aft events! yay.



a very nice part of the meal (featured: corn muffins) w yihui on fri (:
she took train back to yishun w me!
thanks pherd for a great evening (or rather, night) spent!

the day before prelim emaths p2, some time ago, i went to count stars aft being frustrated over maths, literally.
this is just one teeny part of the pile of stars. and omg, i did some maths, and i realised there's more than 500 stars.
and these stars are folded by dear tracie and seepeng and given to me during esprit de corps' shepherd appreciation night.
omg, never knew how many stars there were in there. thank you, dear sheep(s). [i know sheep got no plural lah.] (:

he shows his love through people around (:

results

sometimes, i walk through those echo-y underpasses, hear the melody and voices of the hadicapped baskers, esp those who are visually handicapped. and it makes me wonder "so, had they ever seen colour before? will they ever remember colours? how do i tell them what "yellow" is, how do you explain colour?"

we question "God, where are you in their lives? why is life so tough for them?"
hoho, and i am reading case for faith (by lee strobel). and the book offers some insights.

"jesus is there, sitting beside us in the lowest places of our lives
are we broken? He was broken, like bread for us.
Are we despised? He was despised and rejected of men.
He was a man of sorrow and acquainted with grief.
Do people betray us? He was sold out himself.
Are our tenderest relationships broken? He too loved and was rejected.
Do people turn from us? they hid their faces from him as from a leper."

we claim that the entire world doesnt understand us, who we are, what we are going through. one thing i am convicted, wdv tough situation we undergo, He had a tougher time. and with His backing, wo men ke yi de lah.

anw, today is results day.
i ain't jumping with joy nor very upset, contented at the very least, and want to do better.
im very upset w certain teachers, who just dont understand the power and art of encouragement. and i hate it when i see how much discouragement tears people down.
saw people dear crying, from hurtful words, that my sleeve was soaked.
maybe a word of affirmation, some booster would carry her further, dont ya think?

so im very thankful for the ever encouraging mr tay, who never fails to tell us "ni men bu dao zui hou yi miao, bu ke yi fang qi!"
and my dear mentor who told us to shine for Jesus.

hehehe.

i seem to be blogging excessively.

anw after sch, interesting thg happened.
me, pam, yihui n alvin went to play at the playgrd behind bcc. relieve stress? it's uber fun, though very tiring. even the playgrds nowadays are so sophisticated in design, no wonder no kids at that playground. so cheem. .__.

so, 25 more days to go.
hopefully, SA won;'t fly further away and the path ahead will get clearer and clearer each day.

anni

i love this pict.

andersonian

yesterday my comp was very nice it let me stay online for an hour plus.
and i though the chat w someone was quite fruitful.. God's plan maybe. haha.
anw, school ends for the sec4s in a week's time, then will be everyday mugging.
so i decided to this very lame thing

3 things i will never miss about the school

canteen food
after these yrs, dont really call them food anymore.
extra lessons, extra extra lessons, remedials, extra extra extra lessons
people who subject others to oppression

3 things i will miss about the school

the clan
makes this sounds like cockroach, but i dont wana go explain what the k means mah
great teachers like mrs lim, mr tay, mr wong, mdm neo etc
valentine's people running about giving out chocs

3 things i miss about the school

temp block
aka our "little village away from the people" (which is now the field T_T)
seniors who are nice
school life that is actually quite colourful, the juniors barely have orientation now, poor things.

10 memorable events/days

be you day 05
my birthday04
when huishan stuck on threads as moustache, ber n jo wore sunglasses and tgt w jasmine, all act as tourists. its a long story really.
guides camp- expect the unexpected
dont know why the juniors dont like camps, i love camps.
talenttime 0?
where we pon cca to go support our seniors who are, "coincidentally", in the same cca
the fridays before n after cca esp the clan day last yr
sentosa 7mar05
i cannot rmb how come i am at sentosa on a saturday
orientation in sec1-
campfire rehearsals, banner painting esp a certain banner painting where we spilled nipon silver paint, and me n qiao turned into iron women after cleaning up.
2/3'04 chalet
though it wasnt really fun, but i enjoyed myself, somewhat.
winitsuksa exchange prog in june05 i miss thai food ._.
valentine's 04
when we were trapped in school after the auntie lock all the staircases and we called the office and got the answering machine. the construction workers gave us a long ladder and we climbed down the roof on the 2nd floor.

3 everyday thing i appreciate

169 trips with ber and xin
travelling ard n recesses
knowing there are fellow Hope people in sch and ABS sessions

1 thing that i want to change (im not very greedy)

the emblem, break the bamboo, make it a _ _ _ _ _!!! : D


anw i think my comp is really healed! whoohoo!

kids

Swensen’s durian ice cream mooncake is so nice. Rich and creamy. Oooh.

One more month to the huge Os and 1.5 months more to liberation, yay.
These Sundays of mugging have made me really pessimistic about the kids here in Spore.

Some stuffs I heard coming out of some kids.
“haha, XXX in my class is shorter and fatter than me, its so funny.”
“I hate mrs XXX, she anyhow mark my paper one. I could have…”
and various dialogues about marks and results.

My goodness, what happened to these kids?
I happen to grow up in a rather simple way, I play with lego, Barbie (yah, eww) playdoh and pollypocket. I don’t recall mugging at Macs during weekends. .__.

Ha, my brother in law has been telling me he is worrying about this, how to bring up his child (whose gender is still unknown) holistically.

Hopefully, we aren’t just growing into people who can regurgitate information at fingertips, handle cheem equations but have zero people skill.

I don’t understand why that particular someone would label that certain group of people stupid, because I don’t think we are any brighter. Especially when you claim to serve us, how can one serve people one does not even treat with acceptance and equality?
Grr. Bite you.

anw, happy birthday tweety lun. hahah.
a mini celeb conjured up by me, yihui n sun.